-I am working a lot. Right now I have a full-time internship with the Pasadena Symphony, which consists of me designing educational guides for the music programs that the symphony provides to 3rd graders in the Pasadena School District. If I am not working at the Symphony, I am working my part-time job at the USC Bookstore. In the past three weeks, I have only had one real free weekend, and that was the weekend I went to see Meghan's graduation (I'm glad it worked out that way).
I am tired. But I am also getting into a routine. I feel like I have a better handle on things now.
- The one thing I am looking forward to is going to Las Vegas come mid-August. It's to celebrate Ben's 21st, along with a few of my other friends'. It's strange how in this particular group, I am one of the oldest, when usually I'm one of the young 'uns. I'm going to see Beatles LOVE and I'm super excited!
- My room is a mess. Plus, I need to get a haircut to fulfill my end of the celebration reason for Meghan's Birthday/4th of July/Graduation/Going Away/Andy Gets A Haircut/Irene Bakes Cookies party.
- I had quesadillas today for lunch.
2. Maybe it's because I'm lonesome, or maybe it's because deep down I know that there's a part of me that will always harbor that love, or what I think is love. But maybe the real question isn't why. I know why. The question is "how long?" How long will it stay still? Or will it trickle? Or will it, instead, come bursting out at the most unpredictable moment, that damned dam of desires? And even more so, if I do let it all come pouring out, would I feel relief or regret?
Would I feel both?
